Wednesday, December 21, 2011
Advice for a 20 year old guy?
I'm 20 years old, and lately I have been feeling horrible about life and very confused. It all sorta happened when I started looking at people's Facebook pictures they were tagged in or just going through random people's pages. I live in a town in Ohio that is very poor and there is nothing fun to do here. I feel extremely depressed because I look at all of these people in college and it looks like they are having the time of their life. I go to college, but I just go to local community college. I will be a sopre this fall in college. I'm different from where I was in high school. I didn't try in high school at all because honestly my parents never pushed me to do anything and never punished me. They just let me do whatever I wanted, but I wasn't ever a bad kid. They never asked my grades or even explained what college was to me. Only reason I went to college because my buddy explained this community college to me and I found a degree I was interested in, and my first year I did extremely well in college. When I look at Facebook, I see all these kids in school, and I feel like their parents pushed them and prepared them for college and life. I learned everything on my own with no guidance from my parents really. I just feel like these kids at like Ohio University are having the times of their lives. All they do is drink, party and have and they live with no regrets. My life is working a job I hate, I go to school, and I workout, and I don't really do anything else. I know almost everyone my age just parties, drinks, and hook ups with people in their free time when they aren't working, but I'm not that way at all. I don't drink because I feel like it would take me off my goal in life, and every party I have been to honestly wasn't fun and I didn't feel happy being at these parties or clubs. I would really like to find a girl who doesn't drink or party and would like to settle down in a relationship. When I think about finding a girl, I get really let down cause I feel like most girls my age in college don't want to settle down, and most people I talk to say girls in college don't want a relationship, they just want to hook up with whoever because they are away from their parents and have no regrets for 4 years of their lives, so they just sleep with whoever can satisfy them, and it really sucks cause all I want is a good relationship with a girl I trust and settle down with, but I feel like the at this time in my life where I really want it the most, is the time in everyone's else life where they don't, cause I ume most people at my age just want to explore themselves with a carefree life style. As much as I'm oppose that stuff, I feel like this is the time of my life where I should do that to possibly feel happy, but instead I'm stuck in this crappy town where every girl here is either a druggy, obese, an alcoholic, or they have a kid. I just feel super stuck in life. Is this the age where I should go out and drink and have with a lot girls, party and stuff, or should I keep with my ideals I have and find a good girl to settle down with. Like I said, I just see these Facebooks pics of kids at a University having the time of their life and I just feel so stuck and I don't know what to do. Anyone have any advice or input to how I'm feeling?
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