Should I listen to him or go with how I feel?

He's obviously upset about a lot of things and you have to understand that. Sometimes, especially when it comes to emotional topics (like his friends) he doesn't so much want advice. He just wants someone to listen and tell him that they understand. If everything you said is a fair essment than, you indeed did ****** up and that he does have a right to be upset. Actually, reading this made me feel like that there is someone else in the world like me! I did the same thing to my ex-girlfriend, I never appreciated or treated her the way she deserved - and though I tried when I realized my mistakes, my prior actions always seemed to haunt me. In my opinion, you really need to sit down with him and tell him exactly how you feel. Choose your words wisely; tell him that you care deeply about him, tell him that you know you've made mistakes, that you treated him like less than what he deserved, that you want to continue being with him, that you don't always know what to do or say, that you want him to tell you when your being argumentitive or irrational, that your not choosing anyone (including yourself) over him, and that you just want to be better for him. I'm sure you've made a lot of sacrifices that he overlooks in his anger and frustration, but you'll find that by getting back on the same page with him, he'll come to realize what you have done, are trying to do, and have given up to keep the relationship going. Best of luck to you, and I hope the advice provided a little insight!